Tuesday, September 27, 2005


I'm just getting over being really sick. Deathly ill without the death part. It must have been the worst cold I've ever had in my LIFE. I couldn't sleep at night and kept waking up confused and mentally uncomfortable due to some unsettling dreams. I'm not even sure what they were about other than memorization that I couldn't do for the life of me.

Other issues as well, of the familial kind. They want me to stop being a vegetarian and check up on me behind my back to my mom. Is she eating? Then my mom called my voicemail and I couldn't stop thinking about whether or not they would stop paying my tuition if I refused to eat meat. It's irrational, but that's my obsessive-compulsive self. I can't help it and I'm not sure I want to.

Must finish in two years. The other thing is that I want to study elsewhere, that is, in another country but with this school. They have so many opportunities, but he's so unwilling to pay for it that it's ridiculous. I NEVER asked him to pay for anything of mine while growing up--nothing other than food and clothes I mean. And even so, I didn't get much there anyway. I wish I could get a job and be outgoing and all that stuff, but it just isn't the way I am.

Now I'm sitting here trying to get rid of the redness in my eyes that's become more and more familiar now that I've moved. From crying, stress, lack of sleep. [But I really am happier here. I cannot stress it enough.] All I know is they mask the problem, wash away the tears and strain. They make the red go away.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

I'm here

I'm here, I'm happy, and I'm typing on a laptop. My laptop.

Interpretive running ain't for everyone.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Two Weeks 'Til School Starts

And I'm freakin' out big time.

Oh. Crap.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

I'm your vehicle, baby

Mom's driving me up and we're leaving on Tuesday.

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Updates Schmupdates

I've been selling my poor ol' textbooks online at Amazon.com and have been making a FORTUNE. Okay, maybe not a capitalized fortune, but a lot more than I would've made had I sold them back to the cheap JC bookstore. AHF's daughter told her she sold hers there for $2! I couldn't believe that. A buncha craziness is what it is, paying $50+ for a single book and selling it for less than 10% of what you paid for it! Thank God for Amazon.com and the Internet.

While I'm praising God for the Internet, I may as well mention that I made reservations (online) at the place Mom and I are staying when we go to school for orientation. I don't yet know what she'll be doing when I'm at orientation, but I'll figure someway to smuggle her in.

In conclusion, bye.

Monday, June 20, 2005

Oh my gosh

I got the "Menuet" to 163 on the metronome with barely any mistakes! That's just so cool I couldn't not post it. Still haven't played the accompanying "Trio" on the m-nome, but Ms. Piano Teacher says I keep time well on it, better than the Stozel "Menuet." Oh boy!

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Music, Music, Music!

Things to do before orientation in July: PRACTICE the piano audition piece!, pick a song to audtion for the vocal program, study for that durned theory placement exam. The list'll be added to once I think of more to add. AHHHH! I'm leaving in two months!!!